CD1, Cycle 3

Here we go again!

I knew this wouldn't be our month, I'm quite sure we skipped over O, but it's still disappointing to not get a bfp before Christmas. This means that there won't be a bfp at all in 2015. Hopefully that means 2016 will start off with a fun adventure!

This cycle was the last one for a summery baby, which stinks because I hate having babies in the middle of winter. However, it might encourage me to get down South by next winter even more!

Bill has always wanted an October baby, so I know he's going to try like crazy this next cycle. It's the first time we ever had a real shot at it. I would much rather a spring baby as opposed to a late fall baby, but I also don't want to wait until almost summer to start trying. I'd like my bfp as soon as possible, please! I don't really have time to be picky with birthdays, since we want to have this next baby up North before we move and have different insurance, which means asap. We have the opportunity to move starting next month (January), but we're holding off moving for now since we want this baby and Will has a hernia that needs to be watched and probably have surgery on in the next 6 months.

So hurry up, bfp! We're both very eager for our next little one and have so many plans!

Cy2, CD22

I'm CD 22. I have no idea when to expect AF after last cycle. I feel like I might get it early.

However, I'm alright with it. I want a normal cycle, but have made peace with a bfn coming. I'm now focused on the Christmas season. I have about a dozen different treats to make, and Katie is loving Christmas carols and movies so we've been having lots of fun.

In my mind, we're on a Christmas break and we'll resume TTC on the next cycle, which places O about 3-4 days after Christmas.

CD somewhere past O, cycle 2.

Well, I'm pretty sure now what happened last month. I had the idea, and apparently Bill did too. What's currently going on sort of confirms our thoughts, though I debated against recording it. To keep things straight though, I decided I should.

Last month we definitely hit ovulation, twice a day every day beforehand, then during.

Then I got my period just one week after ovulation, at Cd23. I have never gotten a period so early, even when heavily nursing or still adjusting after a baby. I've never skipped an entire week of a cycle before. Especially when I knew the exact day I O'ed.

And then the AF itself was all wrong. Clots happened before bleeding. It lasted a total of 7-8 days, when I'm normally only ever 4-5. My heavy day are normally the first 2-3 days only, and AF was very heavy until day 6. It even looked different in color.

This month, I'm emotionally insane for no reason. I'm super sappy and gushy. I'm super clingy and connected to Bill. My sex drive is through the roof and completely insatiable. All these things happened exactly like this right after I miscarried Elizabeth.

So now we're pretty sure that we didn't just fail at getting pregnant. We probably were successful in getting sperm to meet egg, but either it didn't form properly or didn't attach correctly, etc. All the signs showed that it started to happen, but didn't work out. I'm really glad I didn't test early, because I think it would have been crushing to see that. Having it be just speculation sucks enough.

At the very least, hopefully that's the last cycle that is messed up and it's not the start of multiple months of an undependable cycle.

As for this month, we NTNP. I purposely didn't keep track of my cycle days, though I'm quite sure I'm about two days after ovulation now. I believe AF is due around December 14th, so we'll see how that goes.

CD1

Well, not exactly sure what happened, but I'm on CD1, which is 5 days early. I don't know when I've ever been 5 days early, so I'm more surprised at that than I am that I'm not pregnant. I have no idea why my cycle was so thrown off and only 23 days long. I definitely O'ed on day 13-14, so cutting off a week seems so odd.

The cycle itself being so messed up is potentially why I didn't get pregnant this time. It definitely makes it hard to understand. Will nursed a lot after we got home from vacation, it's possible it messed it up slightly, but I don't see it as being so drastically different as to cause a 5 day jump.

We didn't get to DTD on the second day of O, but that shouldn't have been why. We did it twice a day for the whole week leading up to it, and hit the first day of it.

I was hoping that if we did get a bfn, it would at least be something I could learn from and use for later. This is too messed up, it doesn't make enough sense, so it feels like a wasted cycle.

8DPO, Cy #1

I'm trying so hard to not symptom spot. It's still early. I hate when others come up with long symptoms that are just standard daily things until you put them under a microscope and search for pregnancy.

However, I can't stop those little feelings that immediately pop up and say "Ah, what if that means we got it?" I hate not knowing if there's something in there or not! So yes, I'm mildly symptom spotting. Not taking temps or anything, not actually looking, but I feel things.

I'm 8 DPO. I have 6 more days until AF is due. Since yesterday, I've been crampy for no reason. My ovary hurts like Ovulation, but I'm past that. I'm not working out, just taking it easy, which usually doesn't lead to such early cramping. I have spikey stabbing pain in my cervix.

I KNOW that it's only a 50/50 chance. I know that logically, I'm probably not pregnant. It's our very first cycle, I'm still breastfeeding, things aren't always exactly on schedule, we didn't DTD while I was actually supposed to be O'ing. There's a lot counting against me here. And yet, every little cramp or stab makes me gasp a little in wonder.

TTC'ing won't be as difficult after this month. This just had a lot riding on it: special themes, special announcements, special baby gifts and ideas. After this month, I'll default back to what I have always planned. I just can't wait to see which way it goes.

Since AF was late last month, I'm now due on the 20th. I'll be testing on the 18th. Just have to ride it out until Wednesday and try to contain my curiosity!

TTC kick off on the Disney Fantasy

We are back from our amazing, wonderful cruise! We're now in the two week wait, and I'm about 5 DPO. I'm very unsure about how we did. At first, it went really well - the first three days, we managed to DTD twice a day. The day I O'ed, we only were able to do it once. The next day I was still finishing up O'ing, and we didn't get to do it at all as that day we woke up super early to go run the Disney 5K on their private island. We had activities to do all day that day until about 11:30, where I passed out immediately after coming back to the room.

So it's possible that it worked, but it's also very possible that we didn't hit it at the right times. Either way, it was definitely a fun factor to our cruise. It was still the kickstart of our TTC journey, and we did it in style.

We got the Romance Package, which was beautiful to walk into and so much fun. The robes we received (and I'm still wearing) were super soft and plush. The champagne was delicious, the chocolates paired perfectly with it, and the rose was beautiful.



I was tempted to buy a Disney Cruise Line onesie there, but decided against it, but it's definitely something I'll have to remember if we do get a BFP.

The whole time I wanted a pregnancy announcement picture (a picture with us as a family and me with my hands on my belly) and we didn't get it, so I'd have to figure out something else now. There was just so much to do on the cruise! We enjoyed every minute, but we already have a list of what we need to do next time that didn't happen this time.

Something I realized on our way home, was that November 18th is Mickey Mouse's birthday - that's the day I've been saying I'll be testing. So we'll know if we're expecting our Disney Souvenir on Mickey's birthday. A pretty cute touch if it does work out!

9 more days to see if we were successful.

We've Arrived!

Okay, it's now official - I'm CD1 on our very first TTC cycle for our next baby!

Two weeks from now, I'll be relaxing on beaches, meeting Disney family, eating amazingly well, and keeping our fingers crossed that we bring home an extra special Disney Souvenir!

In all probability, the chances are low that we'll succeed on our first try, but it's definitely fun to officially be TTC either way. We're both so eager to start on this new journey and bringing a new little person into our family.

This cycle was a day and a half late, which was really annoying and stressful. But next month, I'll be keeping my fingers crossed that AF is really, really, really late - and not come at all!